Oh my gosh I am about to become a blogger and I have no idea what I am doing!

Hello World,

    My name is Katie and I am turning 30 in 30 days and frankly I am a little(nope scratch that) very terrified. Twenty something Katie thought she would be in a very different place at 30. Probably running some difference-making world health organization out of Africa where mothers passed me daily thanking me personally for saving their child from starvation. You know, ending world hunger, little things like that. I would have 2.5 kids and a lab (chocolate of course). I would have a wonderful doting husband...well I have that one! His name is Chris and he is my partner in crime, best friend, and unending supporter of all my craziness. He is pretty awesome... but I am digressing. 
    So as you may have guessed I am not running a program in Africa. I am a nanny and live in a one bedroom apartment in St. Petersburg, FL. We have no kids yet, hard to do that when you have tons of student loan debt but one day it will happen. I'm not knocking being a nanny, I love the little girl I take care of but I quit my job in sales to go back to school to get a degree in dietetics so i could finally do something I love, finally have a life centered around health and wellness and I am just not there yet. When I entered the program I was in the best shape of my life, I had just competed in a triathlon, I was a vegetarian, I did yoga; basically I was living what I was learning. Some where along the way I lost myself a little bit. I settled into full time student and devoted wife and some how my needs came second and before I knew it one week of rest after a race has become...oh many years!  I hardly ever do yoga anymore and I can easily convince myself why eating a large basket of fries is no big deal. Don't get me wrong, to most people I am on the healthier side, especially when compared to the typical American diet. I am not over weight, i don't have high blood pressure or cholesterol but I'm not being me and that is the problem.
  I have been having a little bitty pity party for myself the past few months and the time for change is upon me. I have somehow put almost my whole identity into what I am doing profesionally and not into who I am as a person. I am entering a new decade soon and I plan to leave my 20's "crushing it" as my spirit guide Schmidt from "New Girl" would say! Over the next thirty days I am embarking on a 30 day challenge to try and find myself again through exercise, yoga, diet, mediation, and yes, blogging.

I am not even sure exactly what I want to happen at the end or if anything will be different. I can only hope that this journey will provide some comfort with what is and what cannot be different and to find peace in the present and not always looking to some future thing as the key to my happiness. I have never blogged before so I cant promise it will always be pretty, articulate, or classy in any way but I can promise to always be honest, heartfelt, genuine, and open. Follow at your own risk!

With love and hope,
                          Katie